The Shadow of My Soul

‘Enter by the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is easy, that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard, that leads to life, and those who find it are few.”

Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his Servant?

If such men walk in darkness, without one ray of light, let them trust the Lord, let them rely upon their God.

But see here, you who live in your own light, and warm yourselves from your own fires and not from Gods’ , you will live among sorrows.

( Isaiah 50:10-11-Living Bible)

After 40 years of my life, as I turned the pages of the bible, this passage seemed to leap up at me, as if a bolt of lightening had just hit the room and exploded!

There were still mysteries and conclusions, experiences of regrets in my life that lingered on in my mind as this revelation gave birth.

What was this walk in darkness, without one ray of light that was crying out?

What was this reliance of dependency on God’s light that was required without the self-sufficiency that places confidence on our own intelligence, appearance or accomplishments?

When these strengths fade and your soul is anchored with torment and anguish, from life’s pain and sorrow , then what?

How could I trust in God to finally let go and release the entire burden to Him?

In my feeling of numbness, I clearly understood that there was something much greater than I.

Although I had traveled aimlessly up to this point in my life without the understanding of God, somehow I realized the path was not one of a physical but a spiritual.

There had to be a surrender that would lead me to a place God had created for me to just let go…of EVEYTHING! COMPLETE SURRENDER! A PLACE where I can go to and release issues that I had struggle with. things that were in me and manifested around me…the rejection and pain of never understanding why I was born and where does it all lead to.

Life gets that crazy…and I needed to stop the emotional freefall of doing nohing and be spiritually led in such a way where trust and dependency outside of my thoughts and understanding would impart divine revelation of the unknown and yet the already created. A light that would dispel the darkness of this aimless path.

All that was compulsory or required of me was to yield in faith and search out His will, His Presence for in this place would be the Spirit of Truth.

Suddenly a peace assured me that somehow if I just trust in Him and begin to walk with HIS light I would begin to see the mysteries of my life revealed.

One step at a time, one day at a time...one season through another & the significance of my life would be understood.

It was pre-destined and pre-planned. "

“"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you” Jeremiah 1:5 (NASB)

This surrender to His will will position us to have our spirit reconciled back to our God who never left us, but was always there.

And as the shadow of your soul is dissipated with the hovering shadow of His truth, new life will come forth and you will walk into the full knowledge of what God has prepared for you.

It's called your purpose. It's called Destiny. And it begins in You!

My hope for you is that as you read this book you will begin your journey today.

Come away my Beloved…. I have a place for you that will lead you yet you can not go there by yourself . I have a place set apart for you and by my Spirit I will guide you yet you have no knowledge of where you are going. It is a place where no one can ever go with you… where the patterns of this world and its conformity pressure, dissipates when you arrive. Don’t be afraid of solitude, for In this quietness you shall be strengthened and in your innermost being you shall find trust.