Finally Giving In

If you've ever been in complete darkness, then you know how easily even just a spark can be seen from many, many miles away. Having been in the darkness and being able to come back to the Light because of seeing just a flicker of fire off in the distance, I can testify to how powerful that flicker of fire is. Struggling with low self-worth and low self esteem, and trying to fill that void inside of me with all the wrong things and exposing myself to the enemy through wrong relationships, but being delivered in a mighty way by the Lord and brought to the Light, I would like to pass the torch, so to speak, and be that flicker of Light, that glimmer of Hope, for others to see and follow and find their way back to the Light. From the time we make our entrance into this world, the enemy begins to carefully observe our every move, and throughout our lives, he consistently attacks us at our weakest points. His goal is simple: To steal, kill, and destroy. (John 10:10 NKJV paraphrased). The enemy's goal is to destroy the Light that God placed inside of every believer, even though we know that according to John 1:5 (NLT paraphrased), the darkness will never be able to extinguish the Light! The enemy knows this, but he will try to dim our Light if he cannot snuff it out! I am writing this devotional in hopes that God’s people will find freedom from looking for their self-worth in people and things of this world. That not only will leave us woefully and perpetually disappointed, but the enemy will use whatever means necessary to stop God’s plans for us, including using people to do so. This is why it is critical that we guard our hearts, as the Lord urged us to do in Proverbs 4:23 (NKJV paraphrased). I believe He was warning us about the enemy using people in His Word. Matthew 24:12 (NKJV) “Because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold.” 2 Tim 3: 1-3 (NKJV) “But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come. For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good.” I used to think that the Lord gave me the ability to play music solely for my own benefit, to get me through various trials that He knew I would be facing that were coming down the road for me. I didn't even know I could play an instrument at all, but I discovered I could play piano in 2007 and then guitar in 2010, and this gift of playing music did get me through many trials, as I would pick up my guitar or play the piano and worship Him through many hard times, and created many songs as well over the past 15 years. However, when I wrote “Finally Giving In” in March of 2025, this song was different, because of the sheer amount of Scripture that came to life through it, which is a very vivid picture of the spiritual battle I had been fighting. I am pointing out just a few of many Scriptures that go along with the song in this devotional. When I initially thought about getting my song produced and this devotional published, I kept thinking, “But I’m not a singer, I’m not a writer,” but that wasn't God's voice. I believe that was the enemy's voice, because that goes to the whole struggle that the song “Finally Giving In” is about, combating the lies of the enemy, trying to compare me to worldly things, when that’s not how God created me. The Holy Spirit kept pressing on my heart to do it. Then I finally got the revelation that more people than just myself were going through the same struggles that I had been dealing with, and that they were going to need it and would benefit greatly from the song and the devotional.1 Peter 5:8-10 (NKJV) “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. 9Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world.”