A God of Second Chances

The reason I am sharing these things with you because, I am firm believer that believes that we all can learn from other people mistakes. We can take the things that the Lord brought us through and help someone else by the grace of God. I was not just healed and saved just for myself. My life was spared to be an impacted to help others who are hurting and want to be loved. I was called to be a blessing to share Jesus Christ and I believe that this will help you too.
Here is my story.

I grew up in a single parent home where my mom had to work all the time. She was constantly was out providing and working hard for her family. So, we didn’t get to talk much about life and we didn’t get a chance to have the mom and daughter talk that so many families talk about with their teenagers. When my mom wasn’t around I found myself getting into a lot of trouble, and getting into things that only marriage couples shall involved in. I met a guy an knew very little about him, not too long after that I found out I was pregnant. I was a young teenage at the time an too nervous to let anyone know so hid my pregnancy for 6 months. It wasn’t the smartest thing on my part. When it came to me letting my mom know, I was afraid of what my mom might think or say. Like any teenage would be if they were to do something wrong or fall short. I was like this because I did value her opinion.


On the other hand, you can imagine what my mom thought. I was one of her young teenagers having a baby. She didn’t expect me having a baby at this age an also I wasn’t finish with high school yet. Also, I wasn’t someone who she would think that would give her any problems or issues. My mom didn’t want me to follow in her footsteps she wanted the best for me. I am going to say it like this; my mom was a single parent of 9 kids and doing it all by herself, trying to do the best she can for everyone. So she wouldn’t even think for a moment, that I would be having a baby. Also, seeing how hard she had to work to put food on the table and take care of kids. I didn’t think about this part before; if a baby had at this age what can happen to me. It looked like from my view I was in my own little world because to some degree I thought it was alright in my eyes because I was with this guy.
Now by this time, I had a lot of things running through my mind. How I’m going to let my mom know? How I am going to provide & protect my baby? I was a teenage having my first baby and didn’t know the first thing about raising a child. I didn’t have a job to afford to take care a baby. Now, I went from having no responsibilities to having a lot of responsibilities as a teenager. I went to having no accountability to having accountability. I could not think about self first anymore, I had to think about having my baby first.

During this time in my life, I had to grow up really fast and I wasn’t prepared for what I have to deal with in life (adult life issue). I had to deal with a lot of issues and problems that I put myself in physical and emotionally (grown up issues). I was clueless to some of these things that were happening to my body but this was life for me.(life issues) It seem like it was too much for me to handle at one time and I couldn’t talk to anybody about it. It was physically and emotionally draining for me at the time.


After going through these things, I didn’t think there was any hope for me because of what I was seeing and hearing and what I put myself in. I felt like my life was over. I felt like I fail and was the odd teenage in life because the poor choices I made. Also, by this time in my life, the person that I was with, we wasn’t around each other very long time. Even though I care, we didn’t agree with everything that was going on. At the time it was better for us to part ways. Also I believe that security and trust is very important to have, in any relationship. If I felt like that security and trust was broken, it wasn’t good an I didn’t have an sense of protection. An if I didn’t have that protection and trust it was over with one way or another. Around this time, It seem like everything was coming at me all at once, which felt overwhelming at the time. All I knew is I needed some help. Help me God!