My Twisted Life, but The Grace of God That Saved Me
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A Power Greater - I was empty, I had a no purpose. I continued to buy my destruction on the time payment plan. I was a crack junkie, my destruction came rocked up. I know it was insane but there were others like me. Junkies who used a few pills at a time or drank a fifth at a time until death took us out. It was a high price to pay especially when I prostituted. Any car could have been my last breath. Ultimately we pay with our lives. This disease is crucial, it's cunning, it's baffling and will take you to school. My insanity is repeating the same mistakes and expecting different results. You know what I mean?Using until you are physically and mentally destroyed. The obsession can and will take you down roads from which you may never go up again. Some journeys don't need to be taken to know, I mean really know, that death is right around the corner. When I stopped using drugs, I thought of many substitutes. What can I use to replace this addiction? I was in such anguish and pain, I got on my knees an cried out. It was only then after many sleepless nights and lonely days, That I came to believe.
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About the Book
A book of written word or poetic expressions of my addiction, my hurts, my confusion and pain as I sought a revelation of who I was. "You were the monster I thought was in my closets and under my bed, I could feel and not see. I am confused. Is love pain? Or pain love?You distorted my reality, turned lies into truth and truth into lies. Is love supposed to be this way?How can I find release?You have controlled so long.You have taken a child's song and turned it into a nursery rhyme that no longer rhymes. You have stunted my growth. Even though I am grown. You can't pretend to protect, you can't do both." A poem about the abuse my stepfather put me threw for years. This poetic expression was my only escape when words were not allowed or fear kept them from being voiced
About the Author
She has come from the bottom having died in her addiction in November 2003. Having fought her personal demons of her past. And having sought help from those in a professional capacity to understand her pain and not judge. She is now in a Singing Ministry at her church Trinity AME Zion and no longer walking up and down the streets looking for drugs. And her father can rest at night knowing she's at home. Her family has been restored! And she is currently working on her trial sermon. Glory to God for he has taken off the mask of negativity and put on the light of love!