The Spiritual Heart of a Single Woman

Our plans are never our plans. Yeah, I wanted the husband, big house, nice car, 2.5 kids, and great job, but God saw that He wanted it to be different. Now, that is a hard pill to swallow. As youngsters, we envision what we want our lives to be like, and we do all we can as we develop to ensure those things happen. Some of us spend all we have chasing the dream, but once I realized I didn’t choose my ultimate plan, it was easier to accept my life as it was. We have to submit to God’s will for our lives. This is really a struggle! We think we know what we need, but God knows everything.

I’ve always liked roller coasters. When I was younger, my cousins and I used to get on the Rebel Yell over and over again at King’s Dominion. I loved the rush I got as we went down the first big hill. My stomach felt as if it dropped to the bottom of my feet. That was so much fun. Now that I am older, I still like roller coasters, but I don’t take as many risks as I used to. When I was younger, I fell and was out of the will of God. I experienced sex when I should have waited. Because I didn’t wait, I knew about sex, and it was like riding one of those roller coasters for me. I struggled with this for many years, but when I decided to accept Jesus, my bigger struggle began. I had to listen to God, and while I did not get it right all the time, my relationship with God has caused me to choose. I am sure there are several single, divorced, widowed, and separated Christians out there who absolutely struggle with temptation. There may be some married people struggling too! All you see on TV and the Internet is sex. It is all around us, and we have to stay in prayer to ensure we stay on the right track.

When I was between the ages of five and seven years old, my uncle used to lift weights with his friends, and sometimes we lifted weights as well. He showcased his nieces and nephews, bragging about how much we could lift. It was a pretty significant amount of weight. One time, he called me to the weight room. I knew there was a challenge going on with his friends, so I knew I better perform well. He had me lift fifty pounds! His friends were astonished and cheering. I was pretty strong back then. Through all the struggles after my sister Michele’s passing, I thought I was really strong, but something else would come along and test my strength once again. In 2001, my only brother, Edmond Young, Jr., “E,” died in the Pentagon during the September 11 attack. If God gave us all the things we wanted, what would we need Him for? God always gets the glory. He wins always! Listen to that small, still voice in your spirit. Many have experienced it. It’s like the cartoon that has the devil sitting on one side of the character and the angel sitting on the other side. One is telling the right thing to do; the other is telling the wrong thing. Listen to God! Release whatever has taken you away and caused you to stray from God. Sometimes we make bad decisions, but God still loves us, and if we repent and do the right thing, we will find ourselves back on the right track. What’s wrong with me? Nothing. What’s wrong with you? Nothing!

Who would have thought that God could rescue someone like me? If He loves me, then I know He loves you too. I am a sinner saved by grace. God loves you, my friends, and so do I. The strong woman survived, and so will you. Yes, I’m fine! My life is not perfect, but I have developed a spiritual heart for God, and it is the best thing that I have ever done. I encourage you to develop your spiritual heart for God as well!