For Such a Time as This

For Such A Time As This

Esther 4:14

Grieving over the loss of a loved one is one of the most traumatic experiences any one person can go through. To lose someone you have love very much, who holds a valuable place in your life, who in your heart and mind are irreplaceable; is one of many things in life that can bring you to a place where you are not only alone, but find yourself feeling scared, broken, empty, lost, hurt, discouraged, angry, uncertain, and left with a mind filled with so many unanswered questions.

Loss can come in many forms: neglect, abandonment, death, or divorce, to list a few. No matter the vehicle used to lose the person you love, it all comes with the same emotions, feelings, thoughts, and your heart as well as your world is left shattered, into a million little pieces.

My most painful loss came by way of a divorce. Though loss of any kind is extremely painful, being somewhat partial, divorce is the most painful of all the different forms of loss. I think being left by choice hurts deeper than when someone leaves you by death.

I understand whole-heartedly how you feel and what you are going through. Empathetically, I know the pain of your heart just as intimately. Your mind, like mine was, is permeated with many unanswered questions. Questions that begin with the word why; “Why is this happening? Why did they leave me? Etc.” Your questions then turn inward, causing you to question your own worth: “Why am I not good enough? What is wrong with me? Etc.” These questions will then cause your mind to lead your feelings leaving you to feel like you failed, ashamed or embarrassed. You feel that you have no worth. You don’t feel attractive. You feel unloved. These feelings of “less than” will bring you to a place of inadequacy: your self-esteem begins to fall or becomes non-existent, you may no longer like yourself or how you look. You will become angry, scared, hurt, lost, hopeless, and insecure.

Through all of this you will hurt and you will be sad, you will be misunderstood, you will be angry, maybe even destructive, you will be confused, and more than likely you will want to be the victim, you will be alone, you may even feel suicidal and will want to be justified and you will want your revenge.

Trust me, I know your pain all too well. I was there, right where you are right now and I am here to tell you as a living testimony, that there IS a God who loves YOU, who adores you, who treasures you, who finds you precious and worthy enough to fight for, enough to die for…. and He did!

As I shared, I was married to the love of my life, the father of my three beautiful children. He walked away from me for another female. In my assured opinion, she wasn’t better than me in any way, but for some reason she was “better” enough for him to walk away from me, from all of his promises, from our family, from our children for whatever she had to “offer.” I was left broken, empty, lost, devastated, confused, scared, angry, full of hate and vengeance. I contemplated death but knew I still had responsibilities as a mother of three children, children who didn’t ask for any of this and who definitely did not deserve to come from a broken family. I had no one who was choosing me, who would fight for me, yet I knew I to fight, doing it with no hope, no plan, and no strength for three people who needed someone to fight for them. But I couldn’t do it. BUT GOD! God whispered to me, He picked me up, He cleaned me up, He fought for me, He redeemed me, He told me who I was and whose I was. He loved me. He chose me.

This program that I have designed will take you through the measures that God led me through that brought me to healing and peace, to a heart that is once again alive, to a life that is worth living, and more importantly, a testimony that surpasses extraordinary. I will be as transparent with you as I can be and I will share with you in raw form exactly, what I went through mentally, emotionally, and physically and how God used all of it to help me go from broken to blessed for His glory. I am going to remind you of who you are and whose you are. By the end of this program, you will know without a shadow of a doubt why you were created and what your life means, you will be an overcomer; an empowered and victorious conqueror and you will be ready to really begin living your life to it’s fullest, desiring to fulfill the purpose for which you were created, a champion that finishes the race that was laid before you, if you follow this program exactly.

Throughout this book, I will teach you what is true so that you can better know, enabling yourself to be equipped to battle these moments of extreme sadness and hopelessness.

One thing you must understand before you can continue reading on is, this too shall come to pass. You are NOT alone and what you are going through is NOT who you are, it does not define who you are or whose you are, nor does it define who you will become or where you will go or what you will do with your life.

Your history does not define your destiny.

Also know, that there is no such thing as a coincidence. You are reading this at the exact appointed time that you need to be reading it; you are reading it because it is

FOR SUCH A TIME AS THIS.