Brick By Brick

Deepened Wounds

Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with Me. —Revelation 3:20

Your wounded heart, My child, I have in My hand. I have been carrying it for you all this time, waiting for you to come forth and give Me all that I have known, which was deep in the depths of your heart. Do not hesitate to give Me your heart. The wounds you have inside need to be brought to the surface and cleaned out. Surrender to Me the wounds concerning rejection and not feeling good enough for the plans I have called you to do, the ones of not feeling worthy enough, so your healing will continue. Give Me the doubt, and let Me heal you of the past. Allow Me to remove all the ugliness and shameful secrets inside each wound and turn your mourning into dancing and leave your heart overflowing with joy. Allow My healing touch to rest upon your secrets and heal them with the ointment of My blood, for the blood I shed two thousand years ago is still active and healing today. It is never ending, overflowing in your life.

I love you, My daughter. There are many new things I want to do in your life. Hand over to Me the first hurt you experienced—the hurt that centers around rejection, which is the deepest wound you have. It lies at the bottom of all those wounds on top of it. Some wounds are deeper than others, and I will go as deep as necessary to see that pain come flowing out as My Holy Spirit fills you up and washes you of your past.

Your past can be in My hands, if you allow it to be. Go to those secret places no one sees except for Me. Remember that I know all about you. I have My eyes on you, and I see your hurting heart. I’m standing, knocking and waiting for you.

Prayer: Lord, I want You to come open my heart and show me the wounds that need healing first. I know it will be painful, yet I know You are able to relieve me of this feeling of defeat and hopelessness. I want to spend time with You and in Your healing presence. You know all about me and what needs healed the most.

Thought: What wound would You have me open up first, Lord?

Reflection:

One by One

Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. —Matthew 11:28

My daughter, you feel as if there is no hope, as if you’re in bonds and chains up to your throat. The hidden secret that covers you with guilt and shame begins to overtake you, until one day you cannot hold this burden in any longer. The weight upon your shoulders, the pain deep in your heart, is too heavy to hold on to any longer. Your heart is sinking in sin because of the choice you made. Before you suffocate and drown, lay down those burdens and give them to Me. There is no sin I will not forgive you of.

I will wipe away the sin in your life with My Son’s blood, which He shed for you on the cross. The stain, the memory, of what you chose to do will always be there. Yet I can help you to make your burden light. I will begin to help you heal with those feelings left behind. Will it be easy, My child? No, I’m afraid not. Allow Me to have the shame, guilt, grief, anger, control, fear, and hate and help you heal by putting these issues to rest in their right place, one layer at a time. Together we will deal with the aftermath of your choice.

The choice you made, the sin you committed to end your child’s life, has been forgiven and wiped away and is no more. What you need to deal with is the in between. Accept the fact these issues are a result of your choice. My grace I give you will help you get through the deep feelings daily as you relinquish your hold on them and accept My loving grace.

My child, what once to you represented a painful event in your life, an event buried deep inside, your hidden secret, will one day soon be let out, and you will be set free. The choice you made to end your child’s life and how you felt afterward will be looked upon differently. I know it is hard to grasp, yet this will be your new reality once you have been set free. What once was covered with shame, guilt, and fear will be replaced with acceptance, unconditional love, and grace by Me. This will happen when you let go and let Me have control.

Prayer: Oh, Jesus, the pain is so deep and painful. How will I ever deal with all these issues and survive? You promised You would never leave me. Please continue to hold my hand and walk this journey with me as I lay down my burdens to You one by one.

Thought: Am I willing to let the Lord have every aspect of my abortion and begin my healing?

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