Author’s Book intro:
Power Outage ?
If I were to tell you I’ve never been married, at this time that statement alone would be 100 percent true, yet 100 percent false. “So how can this be”, you ask. Let me explain…
It started over twenty plus years ago, when a little girl became curious and the enemy became excited. Nights and days of what we called “playing house” later led to a night of molestation and years of heart-ache and pain. This story isn’t really about that little girl, rather the girl she grew to be.
I would love to tell you that I have never been touched, defiled, or unclean; if I were to tell you this it would all be a lie.
One Friday night at a country club I gave up my true virginity and married for the first time. Later, after experiencing hurt, I tried to marry another young man. Then I married a couple more times before I finally became engaged to marry.
After listening to a message of a certain vessel of God, I decided to leave all this, repent, and give my life to the Lord.
The engagement to this young man ended when I told him whom I decided to marry (Jesus). This led to the deepest hurt I ever felt at the time. There was some advice given me that cut me even deeper. I began learning at that moment, some advice bonds you like a vise. For the integrity of all involved I choose not to disclose any more information about this situation.
Desires began to well up inside of me that I never dreamed could be there or would happen to me. The same things I hated I became. Now, not only am I a bigamist of multiple marriages, broken from a relationship, I began to battle with homosexual thoughts. Whoa, where did that come from?
I know that’s exactly what I said, I never thought it could happen. So let me finish this, please continue to read I promise you will be blessed in the end. I tried to ignore the thoughts, but curiosity was still raging, now I am curious if these type relationships would be better than the previous marriages and engagement.
Thanks to God that he intervened prior to the curiosity taking me to a place I never desired to be and that was into a homosexual relationship. Once I realized the hand of God through help I sought, I really became determined to give my life to the Lord. I found some powerful men and women of God that ushered me into the presence of the Lord. I began to grow, repent, fast, pray, and surrender my all to Jesus. I was delivered from my past so that you can be delivered from my past as well. No, this is not a typo --- I said you can be delivered from my past as well. Sometime people get so caught up in your sin that they become bonded to gossip, unjust judgment, and other things. Trust me I will give you more in the title “The Other Woman’s Daughter !!”
For the first time in a long time I was single again and excited. I was delivered of the soul ties or marriages, and defiled thoughts.
One Thanksgiving day the enemy stormed in my room out of anger and sought to literally destroy my life by my own hand. He spoke to me that day showed me visions of how it was my fault I didn’t have time with my mother when she died because I was somewhere trying to date. Next my grandmother was sent to the nursing home because I was not there to take care of her, it even went on to friends that I was to hang out with that day ; I couldn’t get in contact with because they were tired of me; the thoughts continued until I began to agree with my adversary. I decided to end my life over these broken relationships and all I had been delivered of just a few weeks-months prior. I did not understand the power supply of God.
Praise God because at that same second I went to thrust a four inch blade through my heart a wind and a voice spoke and said this is not what I have for you daughter, and instead of falling on the blade I feel on my knees. Thanks be to God I have been single ever since for He alone has kept me. After that, I sought God for my very own Power Supply (Holy Spirit).
But this story is just beginning….
The Anthem
1Word is not just a phrase or an image that came overnight
Through many years, heart-felt tears
I had to withstand and stay in the fight.
I couldn’t win the battle back then
‘Cause I was too caught up in sin
HOW DID I GET FREE?
1Word ministered to me
1Word brought it to life
1Word set my spirit in flight
1Word taught me day from night
To realize just what in this life is right
1Word made the melodies real
1Word stays w/in my heart still, and has become real to me
Now It’s evident you see, how this Word has made me feel
True to the Word that shall reveal
True ministry lies in the Word still!