Seasons of Abuse
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Lost dreams
Way beyond her life, there existed a dream.
Little girl lost in false hopes and thoughts, she would never succeed.
During her teenage life, she needed to be free.
No one could vision her envies and what she dreamed.
She became weak and suddenly fell into a lying scheme.
To walk on stable ground was her need.
The devil bound her to a fear that she could never be free.
Her dreams caught on fire and she went astray.
Horrid memories please fade away, dreams please stay.
Walking in the depth of a cloud was her way.
Life was frozen and her hope was melted by the day.
Mistakes flowed throughout her life.
Smoggy desires blinded her sight
The world was full of sadness and strife.
Written on her face, you would never see.
No vision of clearness in her mind to be.
The writings of agony, which were invisible even to she.
Unsolved terrifying nightmares would never be seen.
Her brightness she will not show, indeed.
Her dreams she will now know.
For they were lifted in heaven, from below.
Taya lived her life as a blemished and maltreated teenager with no direction, structure or stability. The trauma she experienced in her past strained her ability to have hope for a normal life. The damages caused by abuse controlled her mind with jarred up endless, corrupted thoughts, which spun words of lies. All she could think of was all the incidents of abuse she had endured, and remembered as a child.
These spinning words of lies that glued onto the walls of her thoughts, caused her to believe what she was hearing. In her thoughts she could hear these words, “You will never become someone who will have meaning on this earth, heaven or in someone’s life.” This specific lie made her believe she was damaged goods, and good for nothing.
She was unable to control the lies, which were corrupting her faith, hope, and belief in God. She was not strong enough, and the strength of her faith in god was just beginning to get stronger. Time was what she needed, however it seemed as though time was running out quickly.
The doors were slammed shut to her true dreams from here on, for this reason she continued to live her life surrounded by her nightmares. She closed all open doors that led towards the light of her true dreams, hope, and salvation. Unfortunately, she was giving up on her life, faith, and self-esteem at a very young age. Bitterness was entering into her soul, hence she started to become careless in every step she took in her life.
She did not care what the outcomes were going to be, for her future was already shattered; her life as a teenager was robbed, and now she was forced to live as an adult. Her own perception of her life was to suffer the consequences without reason, care or regret. She was going to be free to do what she wanted, and no one was going to prevent or stop her from abolishing her future.
Taya was living in a cycle of lies created by the evil in the air that swooped her up, and spun her into what she was to become. She was caught up in the deceit, lusts, and sinful desires that were being offered by the world. Needless to say, she was bound to the world’s tormenting temptations of drugs, sex, and violence.
Sad to say, Taya was only a teenager with no hope for her future—her future was destroyed and her inner being was dark and cold. She started partying, abusing drugs, and practicing sex more than ever. Taya was fragile, weak, and easily manipulated into temptation, which made her easy prey.
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“In every poem written an interpretation of a dream, nightmare, or reality remains to be revealed.”
Taya’s reality was that she lived in an abusive relationship over a decade, which was not a dream, instead it was a nightmare. She lived the nightmare and faced the reality of abuse early in life, nevertheless her dreams came true later in her life.
As the seasons changed her emotions changed with expressions of love, hate, depression, and fear. While God sent his grace, wisdom, love, and joy down from heaven-Taya embraced his gifts in the rain, sunshine, wind, and snow.
Without the fear of what people might think, Taya was able to express her true self by expressing her true feelings throughout her stories and poems. There is a message in her poems and stories, which will remain in hearts and minds forever.
While her emotions traveled deep into her words-her tears bled with the hopes that every word in this book would reach every hurting soul that needs healing.
Living in an environment surrounded around drugs, violence, and crime did not prevent Taya’s dreams from coming true. For she was able to reach out to God with the confidence that he would carry her through all her trials and tribulations, which she experienced in life.
Her poems describe her world, so she would like to invite you to see life through her eyes.
About the Author
Dorothy A. Taggart was raised in Los Angeles, California. She graduated with a BA in Sociology and worked in the Mental Health Field for over 10 years. She is a survivor of Domestic Violence and has a deep compassion for women who suffer from DV. Her main goal in life is to serve God, and to reach out to women who are being and have been abused. Dorothy believes that prevention and the knowledge of abuse is the solution to ending Domestic Violence.