He Is Yet Faithful

New Life

received gospel tracks and prayed the sinner’s prayer before. This time it was different. I can still see the picture vividly; me kneeling with my face to the floor, crying out to God. My heart was so hurt. I cried what seemed like buckets of tears. I was desperate! I cried out to God, then to Jesus, asking him to help me, to save me.

You might be wondering exactly what happened that brought me to that point in my life. Me and my child’s father had an altercation and he tried to choke the life out of me! I will never forget that day as long as I live. He had me up against the wall with both of his hands around my neck. He was screaming “B..., I hate you and I’m going to kill you.” I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t break loose. He only loosened his grip on me when he heard my neighbor screaming my name from the hallway in the apartment building, asking me if I was okay. Her calling my name saved my life. I was terrified and ran from my apartment when he moved away from me. How did I end up there? I had purposed in my heart long before that day that I would never live in an abusive relationship. It was over.

That night I made a conscious decision to change my life. But I couldn’t do it alone. I was so saddened by what occurred that day, so depressed and feeling all alone. Deep down in my soul, I knew God had a greater purpose for me. I asked God to forgive me of all my sins, I asked Jesus Christ to be Lord of my life; to come into my life; change me; to show me His purpose and take control. As I stated earlier, I was desperate. I cried out and cried out, pleading with him to change my life. I was repenting before God. I cried until there wasn’t a tear left in my tear ducts. I was only 24 years old, a high school graduate with two children and tired. I was tired of the heartache, disappointment, unsuccessful relationships with men who meant me no good. I was tired of struggling; tired of laughing on the outside and crying on the inside because my life at that time was not really what I had planned for myself. I was tired of living a life that lacked purpose. I knew that what happened that day was not a part of my life purpose.

After what seemed like hours, two at least, I arose from the floor having sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore, having surrendered all. When I stood to my feet, I knew my life was changed. I knew I was changed. I say I felt changed, but it really was a knowing…an assurance. I was changed from the inside out. I knew that my life would never be the same and it has never been since that day.

I was born again of the Spirit of God that night. Every desire in me changed. Instantly…yes instantly! I threw out ashtrays, no desire for smoking, the partying was over, the fornication was over, the lying was over, everything being all about me was over! The next day I told those closest to me that I was saved; that Jesus had saved me. I was delivered! Many laughed, others didn’t believe! I proudly proclaimed what I knew God had done for me. You see, the void that I had in my heart, in my life was now filled. It really was a miracle. I was not the same woman. My life changed suddenly. It was no joke, no game and it was real! I hadn’t been raised in the church or as a Christian.

The power of God through Jesus Christ had changed my life. From that point forward I had n hunger and thirst for the Word of God. I wanted to know him. I had a Gideon Bible in my home that I never read. From that day on, I sought to know Jesus more; who the Almighty God was; and what his purpose was for me through his Word. Boy did my life change! And I was glad about it!

If any man be in Christ he is a new creation; old things are passed away and all things are become new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

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If you’re feeling like your life is hopeless and you don’t know your purpose; if you’re feeling like the world is against you and you don’t have a friend; if you know that you are empty inside and unhappy; I’m extending this invitation to you. Maybe you’re struggling with depression, drugs or feeling worthless. Maybe you are in and out of relationships with one person after another, allowing yourself to be used because you want to be loved. Maybe you’ve thought of taking your life because no one cares. Maybe you’ve achieved every goal you set for yourself and money or achievements are not the problem, but you are just empty inside. Well this invitation is for you too. If you’ve tried everything else and it hasn’t worked, try Jesus! Give God a try. Take him at his word. Here’s the thing…you’ve got to be sincere. You must be willing to give up everything you know and exchange it for the things of God. You must believe in your heart that Jesus Christ died for your sins and that God has raised him from the dead. You must believe that you need a savior. If you confess this and believe in your heart, God will save you. If you truly turn your life over to God through Jesus Christ, your life will never be the same. God loves you so much and wants to reveal himself to you. Go ahead, try HIM.

Whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. (Romans 10:3). ♥