Good Grief

I don’t pray to a God that I created. I pray to a God that created me. He is not sitting around waiting on my instruction. He is not going to do what I want, but He is always going to answer. For years, my mom has said, “God has three answers: yes, no and wait.” 
That night, God said no when I begged. He said no when my sister was face down on the floor begging. He said no to my husband who begged at my bedside. But, He said yes when others prayed for our comfort. 
I don’t pray because it necessarily changes the outcome. I pray because it changes me. It changes how I see things. It allows me a glimpse of God and how He sees things. I pray because it unleashes the power of God in my heart. Prayer does not mean I get what I choose. God is going to do what is in His will to do, what He has had planned from the beginning of creation. Prayer does not change God but it does change things. 
Prayer will not bring Nathan back from the grave. It does, however, take away the darkness of his grave. Prayer is often bittersweet, but still good medicine.