Unveiled

In January of 2012, I realized the word from the Lord for that year was WAIT. He had me waiting everywhere. I waited in the DPS line three different times, two of them for at least two hours apiece. I waited online forever for a repair. I waited in line at J.C. Penney for what seemed like an eternity. I finally asked God, "What is it with all of this waiting?" Then the still, small voice came to my heart, "You are waiting for ME." I also realized I was to contact my husband as little as possible during that time---not about money, not about anything. God was my provider now. Sure, the money still came from my husband most of the time. But he was not my provider. God was. I needed to trust in God and tell Him what I needed. And of course, He already knew. I asked God to help me be a good steward and to stay in His will with the money He provided, and to live well on less if necessary. I felt an enormous amount of peace knowing that HE was my source, and not my husband. This also gave me tremendous freedom to be more peaceful and loving with my children.

I realized I didn't have to be a worry wart. If my bank account was negative and I needed food or anything else, instead of being plagued with anxiety and calling my husband and complaining, I just asked God and waited. And He ALWAYS came through for us. It was absolutely incredible, and still one of the best lessons on trust I have learned to this day.